He has gone back to the river of souls.
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Sail on, little bird. Sail on, my dear baby brother. Thank you for shining your brightness in the world, for the time that you had to shine. I’m the lucky one, that I got to be counted among your beloved. We are the lucky ones, your beloved. We love you so.
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We are so connected, my tribe. We seldom see each other, or speak with each other, but our ties run deep, not constrained by space and time. We feel each other, as though we are networked together. And so we are.
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Such an inescapable anguish! We know he wouldn’t wish this on any of us, my brothers in arms, and we are so acutely aware in this moment that we don’t ever wish this on each other, this inevitable part of living. We don’t want each other to suffer. We love each other too much, too deeply, and want to protect each other from such anguish. To the extent that we chide with each other that we need to make a joint pact such that we can all just go at the same time and spare each other this part of things. And then we laugh. Because we know that it’s all just a part of things, and the thing that is important to remember in the here and now is just that, the here and now. Live fully, here, now. Joy in this day. In this very day. Love now.
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I’m trying to find a way to describe with words the expression of these feelings. Something like the way that all colors blend into one to become pure white, in a similar fashion, all emotions blend into one to become pure white love in its most raw and ragged form. It’s blazing with a radiance that can almost not be looked upon, and the flames are ragged and jagged explosions, bursts, that radiate outward from the core, which is, I suppose, the main line, the spirit of God. Exquisitely unbearable. It’s a feeling that’s almost too painful and too exhilarating to feel, each extreme emotion pulled to its outermost ragged limit, to the point of shatter, and there they all coexist, all the emotions, as all the colors, on the verge of explosion, barely contained. Raw. Pure. Love.
