I’ve had thoughts milling about that I was considering writing about, but at this point all I have is a quagmire and the best thing to do would be to get some rest, and let sleep bring on its healing restoration, and hopefully with the dawn I’ll have a better grasp.
I might not be feeling so irritated that it’s past midnight and BB is still awake. Irritated that he doesn’t obey when he’s asked to go to bed, irritated that if a bed time is to be enforced, it appears that it’s entirely up to me to make it happen. Irritated that I tried to go to bed over two hours ago, knowing full well I’d need to pump around midnight, and that in getting some rest ahead of time, I might have a chance at not feeling like a trainwreck in the morning when I need to be working. Irritated that all the time passed, and still he’s awake, and I can’t postpone it any longer and absolutely must pump NOW, but in so doing, will give him yet more cause to force himself to stay awake.
