January 3rd, 2007

Although it was nice to have nearly two weeks off from work (even though some of that time was not nice at all), it is with a sigh of relief that I return to the office and my mundane life.  The skies are cloudy and grey, the decorations are put away.  No more garland, no twinkling lights, no ribbons and bows.  All is back to normal, and life in the suburbs goes on.  There is no more holiday chaos and suppressed or unsuppressed anxiety over expectations for idyllic picture book lives where all is merry and of good cheer.

A little someone continues to seek his mother around 2:30 every morning, and again around 6:00 a.m.  Five hours of continuous sleep is a prize!  Note to self:  Don’t allow the little one beverages after 6:00 p.m.  (Right.  Well then.  We’ll see about that.) 

We bathe, sometimes in the morning, sometimes in the evening, we dress, we play, we make messes, we tidy up, we wash clothes, we put them away, we prepare meals, we dine, we wash dishes, we buy groceries, we drive from here to there and back again.  We go to work or we go to daycare.  We spend our days and live a mostly comfortable routine, day in and day out.  It is very soothing, and I am grateful for this life we live.  It’s a good life.

I’m not big on formal resolutions (right, who am I kidding, what with all my various lists and journals), but I hope to make positive strides towards better health and harmonioius living.  Of course I’m hoping for a baby as well, but I’m a bit too timid to put too much hope there at this point.  I can only take so much heartbreak at a time.

All said, I am relieved to be through with 2006.  Hello 2007.  I’m ready for you.

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6 Responses to “moving forth into a new year”

nutmeg Says:

Oh Sue these last few posts have left tears in my eyes. I’m sorry not to have read them earlier. The pain, the loss and mourning. I wish from the bottom of my heart that 2007 wraps you in its arms and gives you your hearts desire.

It is very weird that feeling of life just going on and you feel like you’re just standing on the sidelines watching it all go about its business without a reference to your loss.

I raise my glass to you and 2007 🙂 (and that MIL – words fail me)

Stomper Girl Says:

Good luck with your hopes, both big and small. I hope 2007 is kind to you too!

bec Says:

I think Nutmeg has said everything I was going to write here, and better.

Hugs from Sydney, and high hopes for a better 2007 for you and yours.

Pardon me now, I just have to go and gag over the idea of Hollandaise being made from mayo and mustard.

Velcro Says:

2006 was a bad year, so 2007 can only be an improvement. I hope that this year is free from heartbreak and pain, that your hopes are fulfilled and that your MIL behaves herself just a little better

Miscellania Says:

Lifting a glass to 2007 – May it be full of wonderful things for the House of Sueeeus. I still get very sad thinking of your loss. Then I get mad thinking about your clueless mother in law. I am so lucky to have a great mil! I don’t appreciate her enough.

One of the great things about 2006 is that I met you, and alot of other great folk, in the land of bloggy goodness. You know, women who like chickens, and aprons and children.

Many good thoughts coming your way, Sue.

my float Says:

I hope that 2007 brings you everything your heart desires. I hope it’s calm and peaceful and loving.